Adulthood has finally, truly arrived.
It’s been a while since I’ve written, but in my defense, I’ve been a little busy rearranging my entire life. Currently, I am sitting in the university bookstore near the medical campus of my new school, where I will be spending a lot of my time for the next half-decade. That’s right, I did it! I’m out on my own now. Just a couple days ago I was sitting in my childhood bedroom with my first ever best friend, contemplating all the changes I was about to face, and the long adventure ahead of me. She and I moved to Virginia in the year 2000 and lived in the same neighborhood. When we moved to different parts of town the next year, our families kept in touch, and we’ve been super close every since. Now here she was, seeing me off. I took all my posters and decorations off the walls, and left the it empty except for the blue paint and push-pin holes. I couldn’t believe it. I was actually leaving home for good.
I’ll admit I almost thought this day would never come. Now, I’m 25, and I am aware that many young people get to this phase of their lives way sooner. But knowing my parents, I didn’t think they’d let me go. I told them years ago that I wanted to leave at 25, and I wanted to go back to school, and work while I did it. As is my usual, I followed through. When I make plans, I stick to them. This is what I wanted. While I have craved this independence for as long a I can remember, I’m 400 miles away from my safety net, and I will miss having my parents to rely on. From here on out, it’s just me. But I’m okay with that.
I start my new job tomorrow, and my classes start next week. My priority right now is getting organized, and making sure I know where I’m going for the next couple weeks. I still don’t know where to park for school yet… but I digress. The point is, I’m in! I’ve got my schedules, so I have some time to plan out my days. I still rely heavily on my daily to-do list, and while I want to plan ahead, I think for a while I’m just going to have to take things one day at a time. I could easily get overwhelmed here, but I’m not going to let that happen. There’s way too much at stake. I’ve gotta put on my big girl pants, and if I feel like I’m struggling, I’m gonna fake it till I make it.
I’m not sure if it’s hit me yet that I have entered a completely new chapter of my life. Then again, I’ve been striving to meet this goal for so long that somewhere deep down, I knew it would happen. I knew I had to get out of my hometown, I knew I needed to go back to school, I knew I wanted a new job in a different field of nursing, and I knew I deserved it. I’ve worked hard, done my time, now it’s my turn to get what I want. I hoped and prayed this day would come, and finally, here it is.
Here’s to starting my new life. I’ve so got this.
– E ❤